So I always thought life was about going inwards (whatever that is) and finding yourself.
But.... today I read a quote that said "life isn't about finding yourself its about creating yourself" like wtef??? Right.... makes so much sense. This had me checking myself. You live and you learn.
Whats your take on it? Do you find or create yourself?
Weekday vs weekend🌟first picture I’m sat at Jakes doing my make up whilst he’s gone to work & then the second is last night after I’d spent 40 minutes on my make up. Generally v happy to be seen both ways, wouldn’t be real life without baby hairs and stealing Js clothes🙂
@maybelline Tattoo Liner shades 960 Rose Gold and 900 Deep Onyx - very good drugstore eyeliners, I recommend them. @kikomilano Intense Colour Long Lasting Eyeliner, shade 09 - the only Kiko Milano product that survived my make-up purges. I still wish it would be actually longlasting. @avonslovenija Avon Mark Shadow Attract Eyeshadow Primer, shade Light Beige - bad one, I don't recommend it. @lancomeofficial Hypnose Doll Eyes Waterproof and Monsieur Big mini mascaras - review of Hypnose Doll Eyes Waterproof is up on my IG profile, Monsieur Big is waiting as my backup, so no thoughts about it yet. @maccosmetics Velvetstone Veluxe Brow Liner, shade B57(?) - I needed a lot of time to learn how to properly use it but now I love it! @essence_cosmetics Make Me Brow eyebrow gel mascara shade 02 Browny Brows - my broke ass loves this product! Mentioned a lot of times on my profile. @kvdveganbeauty Tattoo Liner mini, shade Trooper Black - As soon as that shady lady has been removed from her company, I went and buy this 😁. First impression is very good, best eyeliner I've tried so far. @urbandecaycosmetics Primer Potion classic - can't wait to try it 😉!
Happy Saturday! 🥞
Woke up with a trapped nerve in my shoulder and neck and it is painful! Kind of annoying since I have some shooting to do today for something very exciting but in the words of Rachel (from Friends), "we are powering through!" 😅
Also click the link in my bio for a new blog post, my Winter playlist is awesome if I do say so myself 🤪
I do love @benefitcosmeticsuk 💗 my auntie got my this benefit brows set for Christmas and I love it, my favourites are gimme brow and ka-brow 🥰 we’re having a trip to homesense today so I’m very excited, fingers crossed I find some bits 🤞🏼 have a lovely weekend ♥️
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I’ll just be here, waiting for the sun to come back. Mainly so my foundation actually matches my skin again 🙈
We all love a good hoop and these little gems are not only handmade but have a ton of movement in them when worn. So if you’re looking for your next cool dangles check these out
Hitting some interior shops today in hope of some lighting inspo. We moved in to our new build 5 months ago and it's definitely been a gradual process getting things how we want it to look but feel like it is starting to come together now. Same shirt dress as before styled differently with a low bun, hope you're all having a great weekend. 🏡
Mitä tahansa käytkään läpi, anna itsellesi aikaa. Tai vaikket mitään erityistä kävisikään läpi, niin anna silti itsellesi aikaa 💛 ⠀
Pientä hiljaiseloa olen halunnut pitää täällä. Ensinnäkin omien ajatusten takia ja ihan siksi et tulin vähän kipeäksi abiristeilyn jälkeen 😅 niin ei ole ollut oikein päivittely intoa. ⠀
Kaikki on pintapuolisesti hyvin. Olen käynyt joitakin asioita läpi itseni kanssa. Olenkin halunnut antaa ittelleni aikaa ja tää on tehnyt niin hyvää 🙏🏻 On tehnyt niin hyvää olla ihan omien ajatusten kanssa. On tosi tärkeetä osata olla omillaan, omien ajatusten kanssa, käsitellä niitä ja myös nauttia, että on silloin tällöin yksin. Musta tuntuu että silloin sun oma voima voi vahvistua ja voit oppia ajattelemaan itsenäisesti, voit oppia ajattelemaan kauniimmin niin itsestäsi, elämästä, kuin muistakin ihmisistä 💭⠀
Elämä koettelee meitä usein. Pelon sijaan pyrin luottamaan ajatukseen, että kaikki on hyvin, vaikka ei siinä hetkessä siltä tuntuisikaan niin ainakin kaikki järjestyy. Sillä kaikki tunteet ovat entistä sallitumpia. Kaikki elämän varrella tapahtuneet asiat muokkaavat meitä, niin ne surulliset kuin iloisetkin 🪐⠀
Tänään on ensimmäinen päivä varmaan viiteen päivään, kun pääsen/pystyn lähtemään ulos neljän seinän sisältä. Eikä mua hemmetti haittaa ees tää vesisade 🌦 Nyt matka käy laskiaispullille 🥰 Mut hei aivan ihanaa viikonloppua sulle ✨❤❤
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The sun was shining on my last morning in Amsterdam after many many days of rain and clouds. While the weather was less than optimal, these two weeks have been amazing! I’m so thankful ! ❤️
I look forward to going back to the charming city of canals very soon! As for now, I’m in a town outside of Frankfurt for the next 3 weeks! Nomad life suits me 😏😍
• HRT FET- ROUND ☝🏻 •
If you are lucky enough to be in my 'close friends' list for stories, you'll know I got my stuff through from Ninewells to start our first FET.
This left me completely undecided on what to do but after discussing it with Greg we have decided to aim for April's period instead of March's which means I'll start my nasal spray mid May.
This will give me about 12-14 weeks before I go back to the clinic so plenty time to get my BMI back under 30.
I'm incredibly anxious and not very confident that it will be successful, which I know is understandable given what happened with our first two rounds, but a part of my is excited that after nearly a year, we're starting again and will hopefully be one step closer to our dream 💛
❄️I am not super experienced when it comes to make up, but here is what’s in my everyday make up bag nonetheless:
-Kind is the new pretty powder foundation
-Amazonian clay 12-hour full coverage foundation
-Tarteist pro glow to go highlight and contour palette
-Park ave princess amazonian clay matte waterproof bronzer
-Tarteist lip paint rosé
𝗟𝗲𝘁’𝘀 𝘀𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗰𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝘂𝗽.
I’m down for some fun. 🧡🖤
(I wear color...sometimes)
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I've been thinking a lot lately about helplessness. The fact that we as humans are so intelligent physiologically and yet so ignorant of our own bodies and minds. The intelligence that we've been given serves us so far beyond daily survival in the modern world, that all of our extra energy is spent distracting ourselves from our own existentialism. It's also given us the arrogance that we can fix every problem that comes our way. But what happens when that magnificent brain decides, for no apparent or logical reason, to self destruct? To start to attack itself like some kind of all consuming parasite? Before this week, I thought of myself as some kind of amateur mental health guru. Because I've had a plethora of issues relating to my brain over the years, I thought I'd be able to fix someone else's brain no problem. A few wisely chosen words and they'd be right as rain. Of course I understand that mental health is no quick fix, but I was certain I'd at the very least have the power to numb some of the pain they were experiencing, if only for a moment.
That didn't happen. I quickly became consumed by helplessness, there was nothing I could do. And of course, as a human I've been trained into thinking that everything is "fixable". I feel uncomfortable knowing I can't do anything, knowing that so much is out of our control. We like to control as much of our lives as we can. We set routines, we keep calendars of important dates to remember, we take a pill for a headache and pop another to prevent pregnancy. But the truth is, whilst routines may keep us grounded, helplessness and a lack of control is imbedded into the fabric of everyday life. It's part of being human- of being so intelligent but at the same time, so naive. I know I must accept that there's very little I can do- but such is the human condition to never stop trying.
Stepping into the weekend like... Been feeling slightly overwhelmed this week (what’s new) because at the start of the year I always put a lot of pressure on myself to get things booked in to make this year the best one yet, when really I should just focus on living in the moment because those times usually turn out to be the best anyway 🤷🏻♀️
𝐋𝐢𝐞𝐛𝐞 𝐢𝐬𝐭, 𝐰𝐞𝐧𝐧 𝐤ä𝐦𝐩𝐟𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐫 𝐧𝐨𝐜𝐡 𝐥𝐞𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐬 𝐚𝐮𝐟𝐠𝐞𝐛𝐞𝐧. 🍿 @marcelkrausepersonaltraining
Die letzten Tage haben gezeigt, das Instagram eine Plattform ist, die hauptsächlich darauf beruht Neuigkeiten und Ereignissen für den täglichen Gesprächsstoff zu sammeln. 📖 Menschen lesen nicht das Kleingedruckte, sondern urteilen direkt. Es war auf jeden Fall lustig anzuschauen, wie Menschen sich womöglich die Mäuler zerrissen haben. 🤣 Und für alle da draußen, ich liebe meinen Freund, genau weil er jeden Blödsinn mit mir macht, auch einen Kniefall mitten im Hauptbahnhof. ♥️ #love
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