Braxton is quite the social butterfly, just like his mama! Always making friends wherever he goes 🥰 I’m pretty sure there was not one person at the park that he didn’t make friends with!
My IG friend @pretty_pitty_willow recently lost her special guy Joey a week ago... This has been an especially emotional experience considering everything they went through together! I'm not going to try and retell their story because I'm sure I would miss something and i would never want to do anything that diluted the beautiful journey they shared together! 💕💕💕💕
But In reading her latest post I found myself sobbing and feeling the pain of loss that I have not felt this deeply for many months! Don't get me wrong, I do mourn the losses I experienced many months ago pretty much on a daily basis... thinking of Ellie makes me sad and a bit melancholy, as thinking of Zeke in his new home... (but at least he is very happy)... but it's really the loss of my beautiful grand beagle Sid that i just can't seem to get past! (Swipe 👉 for Sid).
The loss of Sid still comes at me in such a raw and painful way... sometimes its hard to breathe! He has left a huge hole in my heart and i don't know how to fill it! 💔
Reading in her last post about holding Joey as he took his final breaths, and dreaming about him still being there... all hit home with me... but it was this part of the post that I broke to... "I miss you every single day. If it’s true that we mourn in proportion to the significance of our relationships then, this is going to take longer than I thought. Someday, I will honor the lessons you taught me about patience and kindness, and rescue another animal in need." #RIPSid 💔💔💔
There is something so innocent about a child. Each day forming new things in them, creating who they are going to be. All the exposure of life touches them in ways that will help shape and form them. I would give anything for it to be all rainbows and butterflies.. but, we know that’s not a reality.
This little boy is my child’s child, he will grow up knowing his daddy only through pictures, and stories, and memories from people who loved him. He is the one innocent victim in all of this and to this day it rips my heart out in ways I can not even put into words. As time is fast approaching to the one year anniversary of my son’s death, my emotions are many, but this little boy holds so much beauty and innocence of who my son was, he is the very best parts of Tyler and I pray his life is everything magical because that is my hearts desire for him. I know there will come a day when all the harshness of life enters in and he will face his own challenges but today as my heart aches deeply, I am simply thankful for the innocence and blessing of who this little boy is.