🦋God knows that they were right
Because nobody loves you, they just try to fuck you
Then put you a feature on the B-side
And who do you call when it's late at night
When the headlines just don't paint the picture right
When you look at yourself on a screen and say
"Oh my God, there's no way that's me" 🦋 #manic#halsey
(manic)✨ an album made by ashley for halsey
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i'm honestly so proud of halsey for this album. manic is one of the most personal & well created albums i've ever heard, & it means so much to me. i'm so thankful for her, the things she's taught me about myself, & how much she inspires me everyday. . . .
also really like how this turned out, i usually fucking suck at coloured drawings but im actually pretty proud of it.
So, I feel the need to give a shout-out to @iamhalsey for her song “Colors,” which I came across in early 2019. It’s been described as a song about toxic relationships, but I interpreted it in a different way.
In March 2019, I suffered a severe panic attack, caused by stressors relating to adjusting to university life and the draining level of depression and anxiety I’ve struggled with most of my life. I barely slept for over a month, and I had to call my parents from 100 miles away every day just to distract me.
After the semester ended, my intense anxiety followed me. I played this song over and over again, feeling the lyrics described the person I had become; I was gray: “devoid of color” with little strength to go on. My dreams for writing novels had collapsed. I didn’t know how I’d make it after I graduated, having virtually no funds left by the time I was supposed to be living independently. I was blue: I drank a lot of alcohol, relapsed with smoking/vaping, “pulling apart at the seams.” The lyrics of this track touched my soul; I was at rock bottom at age 22.
After I started the next semester, desperately wanting to drop out and save thousands, everything suddenly changed. I went back on medication after over a year, and I bloomed with vibrant “colors” that I never knew I had.
My passion for writing was somehow reignited. I contacted friends I hadn’t talked to in ages. Despite taking the most credits I ever had in the last four years I’ve spent in college, I excelled and wound up with a higher GPA than I’ve ever had.
I still struggle with depression and anxiety regularly. But it’s manageable now. I don’t need to distract myself by biking seven miles into the city from my rural home. The smoldering embers of my will to survive nearly went out, but they are now beginning to reignite.
Thank you, #Halsey , for you’re incredible work in the #music industry. You are perhaps one of the most-relatable artists out there, who’ve fought through so much when nothing seemed to get better. I’m eager to see how my palette of colors looks like in another year’s time.
Stripped back and raw, @iamhalsey performed songs off her new record “Manic” in front of Capitol Records for #ManicTheExperience , a sensory exploration of her brain, vibe, and new music. “A lot of this album was about me demanding more for myself,” she told the crowd of screaming fans. What do you think of the #Manic ? #halsey#withoutme#withoutmehalsey
You said I'm
Too much to handle
You said I
Shine too bright
I burnt the candle
Flew too high
I won't take anyone down if I crawl tonight
But I still let everyone down when I change in size
And I went tumbling down trying to reach your high
But I scream too loud when I speak my mind #halsey#music 📷: @keisy_nizel1899
6 4518 January, 2020
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it’s @iamhalsey album release day and I can’t seem to put into words how much I love this piece of art. It’s raw, it’s honest, and it’s masterfully written. I haven’t connected this personally or deeply with an album in a long time. ily and I can’t wait to see you in June.