Des nuits courtes, des pleurs, des journées que l’on pense être interminables, des peurs, des doutes.
Quand la fatigue prend le dessus, et que le silence s’installe pour contrer les pleurs.
Puis réaliser que ce qu’on avait toujours planifié, deviens des choses impossible à réaliser.
Prôner l’éducation à travers le dialogue constamment tout en soi-même être sans voix.
Parfois être à bout, ne plus rien voir d’autre que ses objectifs non réalisés.
C’est en détachant mon regard que j’ai pu observer ce visage heureux, et réaliser que le plus important est de trouver le bonheur dans le présent et pas d’être dans une éternelle quête du bonheur dans un futur proche.
|•She is afraid
She is really terrified
With the thought that
One day someone
Will come in her life
Again. After ages.
And He will try to give her the love.
The love that she
But she won't be able to accept.
And in the end after trying his best.
he too Will think that
She is not made for him.
He will think
She can't give him anything
She is not one of his kind.
He won't understand her fears.
He won't understand
How hard it is for her to trust.
He will leave her.
Then and There.
Everyone will leave her.
As till that time.
She will become
So cold as ice.
She won't show any of her feelings.
Because after years of crying
She will finally conceal them,
In the core of her soul.
She won't let anyone come close to her.
She will always think people will use her.
She will always think that they are lying.
She will always remain
That anxious and depressed girl.
She thinks she will stay alone forever.
She thinks that no one who she loves.
Will love her back.
That would be the reason.
She won't ever give anyone her heart.
Because she can't take another chance.
Another chance of getting her heart broken
The heart that is already in billions of pieces.
She can't let her guards down.
She is afraid. She will lose herself.
In the process of breaking and building her back.
She will lose that loving and happy girl
Which she always was.
she is fearful that
She will never find herself.
Or anyone else•|🍁
. @lattepoetry 🍃
I DON'T TRUST ANYMORE BUT STILL I WISH THEY WILL NOT BREAK ME ONE MORE TIME.🍃
(Not a poetry you see it's just how I feel, I don't trust as there is always some doubt and fears running in my head, but I still wish every day they won't break it again)💔
. @lattepoetry 🍁
13 2619 September, 2019
My review of Green Bay, Wisconsin is up. Copy and paste the link and subscribe to my channel: https://youtu.be/M3UaPbYYbz8
If you look closely, you can hopefully see the geese making their way across the sky, to the right in this picture (taken on our walk this evening).
Having grown up in Sweden, and having lived the majority of my life there, I’m used to seeing flocks of geese flying south in the autumn, in their typical V-formation, as they set off to spend the winter somewhere warmer.
However, the geese that we’re seeing in the skies here now, in south east England, are actually ARRIVING, not leaving. So now I need to learn not to exclaim ”oh look, the geese are flying south!” every time I see them in the sky...
As someone who’s lived through quite a few very long, very cold and very dark winters, I’m feeling hugely grateful to now be in a place where birds come to in the winter for the milder climate, rather than leave from in order to survive.
I know that Penguin and hubby would both enjoy a few days of snow, but personally I won’t miss it if it doesn’t happen. .
|•There is nothing like
Demons, devils, monsters and all,
The only ghost is in our thoughts.
No matter how much we lie.
There is always a sadness behind.
Scratching our legs,
Pulling us back,
To the past and mistakes.
No matter how much we try
To move ahead.
There is always some regret
Pressing our heads.
We are too drown,
In the ocean of our flaws,
We can't see the best anymore.
Though we try too hard,
To swim back to entity.
But our anatomy has become numb.
There is so much hurt that we feel,
That hurting ourselves
Don't bring the misery.
Words float in our minds,
Like dangerous fishes.
Which eat half part of it,
Screaming, crying no more
Gives the relief.
But stabbing ourselves always did.
Cuts and wounds may never heal,
But they had finally given us
Feeling of peace.
Darkness is another way of happiness,
In our small world of undesired thoughts.
Listening songs take us
To a different universe,
Where our hearts get healed.
Though those cracks and holes stays.
But a lot of tranquility could be found.
Feeling lifeless while sitting on the couch,
Has become one common way
Of being alive.
People think it's easy to survive,
But life knows how to prove itself right•|🕷🥀
. @lattepoetry 🌻
SANDHOPPERS (and a haircut!✂️)
Here’s a little 20 second clip of some of our local wildlife 😄🎥
When we were strolling around on the beach on Sunday evening, we suddenly found swarms of these little critters around our feet. Sandhoppers, loads of them!
Sandhoppers are sometimes called sand-fleas, but did you know that they’re actually tiny crustaceans? 🤓
Apparently there are a few different species which all can be called sandhoppers/-fleas. .
According to the @sussexwildlifetrust website, sandhoppers don’t bite... but I’m pretty sure I’ve had my skin pinched by these before? 🤔 Anyone else here with experience of them biting at all, or is it just me...? .
So home schooling is going well ( but I m not saying it out loud in case Minky hears me 🤣).
Turns out a lot in my county don’t start home schooling till 4 plus.. so we don’t fit into a of groups yet.. .
But we are going to the ones that are happy to have a busy 3 year old, nature forest school last week. Bush craft this Friday -. And maybe a march for striking for climate change.
Saturday- nature walk and a trip to oxford castle - with hey siblings. .
Life is a lesson - everything is a lesson - from counting to when she jumps - to photographing flowers we like - so we can say the colours and count them.. .
We ve been doing things at home for probably a year - messy play - drawing with mommy writing the words of everything next to them - book reading - .
What I like about home school is it feels like a more nature progression .. we are looking at trees , seeds , flowers plants .. because she is interested in them , so nothing is forced .. she learns so much more by just being interested. .
9 4117 September, 2019
I cried , I washed my face and came out as nothing made me sad.😊
(Fake a smile, and live your life.)
. @lattepoetry 🍃
|•Each and every insolated night,
Sitting over the porch.
She glances at the moon,
And the twinkling of stars.
Feeling entirely numb
But When that icy breeze touches her Anatomy,
She thinks back to that warmth clutch,
Those deep memories which she had successfully concealed from everyone,
were now recollecting every night in her mind.
Even when she was aware of the grievous truth,
That nil would change in her life,
A little hope was still alive•|
. @lattepoetry 🍃
Life came without a manual
We experience failures, traumas and disappointments
We have come and gone as the season’s in life are meant to be experienced.
Even though our life is meant to be a series of continuous learning lessons, many of us never learned the tools to actually over come the emotional “leftovers” from our experience.
I knew about stress management, self care and time management. Thinking that was the secret to overcoming life as it was evolving.
A few years ago I was looking for a real awakening while walking through my own dark night. Wanting to master the constant changes in life disease brings about.
I knew it was a now or never type of personal commitment. I got a mentor and coach to find my permanent internal center. I can confidently report that ‘I am back home to myself’ after finding the beauty and gift in my uncertainty.
The only thing in life that is certain is change
Wanting or waiting for a plan to play out exactly like we envisioned in our mind is disempowering. Because 99% of the time when things don’t work out to the “tee” we lose the connection to create something even better.
Uncertainty is a space where we can co create and allow the beauty and its miracles to occur.
I live for my client’s exhales when the peace of letting go sinks in, it’s a physical release, that is expressed when they gift themselves the curiosity of a new perception.
I look forward to all the exhales and revelations that will occur for you while on your personal journey.
My desire is to inspire hope for you from this moment on.
Однажды ты поймешь, что осталась одна. На самом деле ты всегда была одна, но это понимание обычно запаздывает. Родители умирают, мужья изменяются, любовники изменяют, дети растут. Или ты сама уходишь от них потому, что они теперь чужие. Ломается то, что работало еще вчера. Не важно, что именно произойдет, помни: одиночество всегда за спиной, как зима. Зрелость — это способность быть одной, не драматизируя. Готовиться лучше заранее, я расскажу как.
Всех, кроме близкой родни, можно заменить. Никто и ничто не бывает в одном экземпляре. Впускай новых людей в свою жизнь, даже если не понимаешь пока, есть ли у вас общее. Однажды ты поймешь, что осталась одна, и это спасет тебя.
Всегда пробуй новое: еду, одежду, маршруты, гаджеты, активности, фильмы, книги, теории и объяснения вселенной. Мозг сделан из ленивой жвачки. Чем дальше, тем больше он хочет гнуться в одних и тех же местах, остальные его извилины стремятся исчезнуть. Не позволяй ему прилепляться к одним и тем же вещам, удовольствиям, путям, способам и трюкам. Всегда пробуй новое, особенно когда тебе лень, страшно или не хочется.
Прости всех, кого можно, остальных забудь. Забвение — лучшее наказание и лучшее лекарство. И никогда ни с кем не спорь, лучше сделай маникюр.
Спешить некуда. Все, что происходит быстро, живет недолго. Если действительно чего-то хочешь — сделаешь. Если расхотела, значит, было не нужно. Рискованные желания и поступки откладывай, давая им «отлежаться». Делай что-то, в чем ты не уверена, лишь если желание неотступно преследует тебя долгое время.
Этот пункт дополняет предыдущий: если очень хочешь чего-то и считаешь это правильным, делай. Желания и есть жизнь. Давай желанию жить внутри и следи за ним. Если не исчезло — последуй ему.
Не сдавайся, пока чего-то хочешь. Удача — это опыт, то есть количество повторений. Любая неудача — недостаток опыта и компенсируется опытом. Смелость и риск — это опыт. То, что порой выглядит как несусветная наглость, — это опыт. Стойкость, терпимость, умение прощать, устойчивость и независимость — все это опыт. Главное — не сдаваться, пока чего-то хочешь.
Ничто не конец, даже конец: все лишь течение (c). #learninglife#lifetolive#happylife#alone#happywife
|•So. You wanna know
Who she really is?
Then look into her eyes
When she says she is all fine.
They will tell you
The truth that she is lying.
She is not easy to understand.
Because she will never say
What she feels.
She will listen to you
And your problems
Without caring about herself.
She won't ever show
How broken her heart is
Instead she will always
Try to be that happiest girl you see.
She will make you laugh
When you want to cry.
She will hold you tight.
When you would be falling apart.
Yes she is hard to understand
Because she is just like a baby
Who can't express herself.
But if you read the statuses she upload
And the songs she listen.
The things she told you
As if they were a joke.
You will know who she really is.
And how she feels.
She won't be that
Easy to be understood
Or to be loved.
But once you saw
The real heart of her's
I bet you would
Never be wanting to lose that girl•|🍂
. @lattepoetry 🍁
17 3815 September, 2019
Sunday and full-time reading, one of the nicest combinations I must say😍, yeayyyy I learnt and completed this book today, here we go with some beautiful excerpts, let's learn and apply together!!🥂
This book named 📚TheMasteryManual by @robinsharma
|•Each day I was breaking a little.
A little more day by day.
But my love I was trying.
Trying hard not to quit.
Not to give up on my life.
Maybe I succeeded in staying alive.
But was I actually living?
No, you broke each inch of me.
You made me not to believe in love.
You made me realize.
Even best of friends can leave.
Thank You everyone who promised forever.
And are now no where to be found.
I learned not to trust people.
Not even the closest one.
But to trust myself the most•|🥀🍂
. @lattepoetry ☘
“The day will come when men will recognize woman as his peer, not only at the fireside, but in councils of the nation. Then, and not until then, will there be the perfect comradeship, the ideal union between the sexes that shall result in the highest development of the race.”
– Susan B. Anthony
AFTER ALL I CAN'T BE EVERYTHING YOU WANT ME TO BE.
(At some point I needed to realize, I am not responsible for everyone, I am not responsible for how they all feel. If and only if I am not happy with me. .
As the first thing one needs to learn is how to love and create happiness for themselves. Later you move on to make the world a happy and friendly place.)🍃🍁☘
. @lattepoetry 🌟
20 things I learned after becoming a refugee at the age of 20 (I)
1. It’s perfectly okay if you don’t know what to feel, if you don’t know what you want and if you can’t figure things out as you go.
2. It’s also okay if your citizenship taken away from you unjustly, it doesnt define you anyway, it never did.
3. When nobody else celebrates you, learn to celebrate yourself.
4. Sometimes there is no light at the end of the tunnel, you should get your own light and pave your own path.
5. Always go with the choice that scares you the most, there you will find your source of growth.
6. Whether you want it or not, life goes on. Please let the past be the past.
7. You can be as sad as you want, just make sure you are still doing things. Go and be sad while taking pictures, reading a book or completing any task.
8. Everyday give yourself a moment to appreciate what you have.
9. You can find a home anywhere by creating your circle of friends who loves you for who you are.
10. Keep on living even if you don’t know how to anymore
Becoming yourself... Once you understand that’s what life is all about, it feels much more relaxed! It’s about self-acceptance, accepting your good and bad qualities, your beautiful and less beautiful sides, things that you are done with, things you want to do with the second half of your life.
(Still learning, but slowly starting to understand the concept…really.)
As you grow older, you become a more concentrated version of yourself. You learn who you are, why you’re unique, who you’ve always been. Without pushing yourself to be someone you are not. Taking myself as an example, today I feel much more ME then in my twenties (or thirties). My ambitions as a young woman have taken me far and I have enjoyed both my careers, first as a fashion model, then as a fashion photographer. But I know now I was pushing myself not to be me, but someone stronger, cooler, tougher.
”Aging is an extraordinary process where you become the person you always should have been.” ~ David Bowie
There is a link in my BIO 👆🏼 for the complete “ME MYSELF AND I” blog post I wrote. 🙏🏼 Thanks for reading. 🌿
“Cada siguiente nivel de tu vida demandará una nueva versión de ti y a veces, se necesita estar roto para convertirse en esa nueva versión de ti ...”✌️ Happy Monday!!!
49 2,24810 September, 2018
biggest lesson of 2018: you have to *ACCEPT* and *APPRECIATE* the ebbs and flows of life.
all of it is necessary.
the joy. and the pain.
the certainty. and the doubt.
the love. and the loss.
the success. and the struggle.
the growth. and the decline.
the hello. and the goodbye.
the beginning. and the end.
and everything is temporary.
nothing lasts forever. that’s just how this crazy life thing works. and the only thing that is ever guaranteed... is this moment. right now. so you might as well try to enjoy it.
hey, 2019. 👋🏻 i am so fucking ready for you. Xo.