It's true, after a while your forgotten about. People can write and express as much as they want but it's the actions that we take to help someone!! I battle depression myself, believe me it's bloody hard battling your own thoughts on a daily basis. Yeah, I'm medically treated but I still get bad days. Your mind races and races, until you have no control. I've lost alot of people because of my mental state but it takes someone special by your side to understand your needs and thoughts. Most days I feel alone as I don't have many friends in my life. Some days I crave that someone will hold me tight, and say, you matter to me! I now rely heavily on my mum and my siblings to help me see the brighter side of life.
As time has passed, I've found coping mechanisms that help me cope. I'm not ashamed to openly admit it, some will assume, gosh why does she have depression? No one really knows what goes on in people's lives. Just be kind and never judge ❤️ Mum I love you, you're my rock 💞
Memilih bukan hal yang mudah, ketika kamu memilih untuk mencintai pilihan yang kamu ambil, namun rintangan itu sangan berat. Yakinlah!! Jika dia benar mencintaimu dia akan ada, jika tidak serahkan semuanya pada Tuhanmu!! 😊
Sungguh aku lupa nama Opa yang ini karena ngobrolnya pun hanya sekejap waktu bantu Opa megang mik karena Beliau mau nyanyi.
Selama kurang lebih satu jam sebelumnya, Opa ini yang main alat musik untuk teman-temannya. Mungkin dia capek, karena lagunya dangdutnya itu-itu aja. Seputar Judi dan Janda 😅. Akhirnya dia minta mik, terus mau nyanyi. Agak susah ya, makanya aku bantu pegangin.
Opa ini baru beberapa bulan disini, sebelumnya di Panti Sosial yang lain. Beliau dipindahkan ke Tresna Werdha 3 ini ya karena kemampuannya bermusik.
Sehat terus ya Opa, biar teman-temannya juga bahagia denger Opa menghibur mereka dengan musik.
This is stolen goods from @coleys_weightloss_journey well at the weekend, I had a good bevy and a gorgeous Italian at our local restaurant. I didn’t wear my fakebit yesterday as I just needed a day of not thinking about it. This week I’m off work and I’m getting a new fitted kitchen 😬 I’ve been up since 6am sorting out, cleaning and clearing and my to-do list is Mrs Hinch worthy. Fingers crossed for a good result this week, not just on the scales but to the feeling of accomplishment by Sunday next week 💛 #swmafia#notsoslimmingworld#myjourney#mylife#slimmingworld#onplan
Everyone has those bad days,.. lack of energy, lack of motivation, just "not feeling it today" we're only human, I've been there myself. .
But if your moaning about the gym day in day out? Maybe this game aint for you lol try darts? 💁🏻♂️
working out is a luxury for me, being able to go to the gym is a privilege, and something I look forward to. .
If your not positive about your training outside the gym, I guarantee you won't reap those positive changes inside the gym. .
change your mindset!! #bepositive#motivationmonday
My face. Wow I look terrified in this pic, and I think I even look better than how I was feeling when taking it.
I’ve been feeling really bad about myself lately, especially my face. So I have decided it’s time to TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. And I want to document it here.
I want a place where I can be free to just be me, to share my insecurities, and to work on seeing progress within myself, and on the outside as well.
My first step to getting my confidence back is working on my skin. I just ordered some Ole Henriksen products and I CANNOT wait to try them.
I’m not happy with my acne, (hormonal I believe) my dullness, & the bags under my eyes. *this pic was taking straight after a bath, no filter, no editing (obviously 🤦🏻♀️)*
I want to say something....👇.. I want to say something about when my mental health hit me in full force in the weeks after leaving detox.
As the weeks went on my mental health was getting worse and worse. To say my moods where unstable would be an understatement. Meaning I would literally go through every emotion rapidly. I was really happy and positive one minute, consumed with the worst waves of guilt the next and then the anger I had in me was off the scale. In amongst this all going on I was also having a identy crisis because i was so confused about who I was now. Constantly battling with my ego that would be constantly saying 'fuck this stop being a PUSSY drink! Knowone tells us what to do!' Non stop. When really the pussy thing to do would be to start drinking and taking drugs again. Hiding from the fight ahead. Unfortunately the worst was yet to come. So for me the worst part of it all was the nightmares and flash backs. I am man enough to say they scared me to death. They were so vivid and real that I would literally wake up in a panic attack because of my dreams. All were of actual events that had happened in my life.
Stay strong attend every appointment. Fight for the help. I had mental health issues long before my addictions. Back then you would have to be drug and alcohol free before they would even look at my mental health. Which is ridiculous because the more sober I got the worse my mental health got. In previous attempt to get sober. This point is when I would always lapse because I simple couldnt cope with my head. Now they do treat both at the same time but you have to fight for that support. Be assertive in getting help. Dont suffer in silence. Talk!
Listien I'm not sugar coating shit for anyone. This battle is real and fucking hard but the reward is life. We have to choose life. We have to stay strong and fight. You can do it! We can do anything! Take back control!
Monday motivation~ the wheels have fallen off the wagon since my final semester of studies have started back and I haven’t been training like I was, so I’ve had to remember I’ve got lots of goals this year and training isn’t just good for the body but also for the mind. It de-stresses me and helps me sleep... Sometimes you’ve got to shake your thoughts and get back on track! 💪🏼🙏👍🏼 #mondaymotivation#toilettraining#myjourney#fitfag#sweatybetty#loitering#gayboy#instagay
Today! After 5 months I am back at the barre!!!
Yes, I missed dancing, of course. I dedicated my young existence to dance and It's always been there between the good and the bad times. My lighthouse, My source of joy and the way I express my self the best.
I don't have any memories without dance. I didn't know what my life is without it! I was living an unsustainable life, Putting pressure on myself everyday because I grew up and used to live like this since ever. Without paying attention on fundamental human aspect: as identity, emotions and feelings for example. And for this reason, as well, i had to put on pause my biggest love even if afraid to lose it. Health first.
It's been a though and painful journey but with help, support and self love, I let Vincenzo, the human being and not the dancer, finally step out and take the lead.
Often, when your job is your Passion, the lines can be very blurry and, like in my case, it's easy to lost lucidity on your identity in between life's nasty sour dynamics.
Today, I am returning stronger and with a big kind smile towards myself, and towards who supported, understood and allowed me to undertake this therapy.
Therapy is good, is not a sign of weakness. It's the truest action of courage and strength! If you don't take care of yourself, nobody will! You are worth it to be happy.
The time off paid off. I'm Vincenzo, and I am looking forward to never miss a chance to be my self. When dancing, as well when travelling through life and world's endless possibilities.
I hope my story can be found as companionship for those who experience depression, anxiety and high stress level. You are not alone and the first step is awareness and it's important to talk about it more often.
Here I am, skin cancer war wounds and all. BUT I am here to do something about it! PLEASE READ, I need your HELP! ⠀
As you know Melanoma is a cause I am passionate about, not only has it impacted my own health with my stage 4 diagnosis I received in December, but my Dad has also had several serious Melanoma's and my Uncle sadly passed away from this condition several years ago. ⠀
So it has become my mission to spread awareness about Melanoma and I'm asking for your help. I am attending the @melanomamarch_ on March 15th & if you could donate to my fundraiser that would be amazing! All donations are secure through the link in my bio and go towards a national melanoma research project to save lives. Every cent counts and is greatly appreciated. Also if you could share my link online or with family & friends that would mean the world to me. ⠀
Again, to donate click the LINK IN MY BIO 🙌🏻⠀
P.S I look a little frowny in this photo and that's because I NEVER go to the beach and the glare was too much for someone who wears sunglasses even when she walks 10 meters from her car to her office lol 😎⠀
xx Courts ⠀