Why I became a cultivated woman.
I remember a few years ago I had a mini-breakdown. I was pushing, building, forcing, the way many entrepreneurs create results.
I had a happy relationship, great friends (that I didn’t make much time for), I was taking good care of myself financially doing what I love, opportunities were coming in, I was advancing in my career. On some level it was working. Unfortunately I was good at playing the game of “making it” as if I would arrive somewhere and then take a break.
I remember my partner running me a bubble bath and convincing me I had the time for it, while I hovered over my not yet complete to-do list at 9:00 pm at night.
One day I went over to a friends house who poked beyond the usual and I popped. I literally broke down sobbing how I couldn’t handle the stress and the pressure I had created through my obsession with achievement. I was lost and overwhelmed.
I remember saying, “How did this become my life? I’m just like my workaholic parents.” This stung.
Truth is, even with a decade of personal work, underneath I was still moving from fear. I was in survival mode, I didn’t trust life had my back. I was working from my masculine and not listening to myself. My achievement was compensating for a fear I wasn’t enough.
So I dove into what I knew I needed to do. I already studied many sexual arts such as tantra, psycho-somatic psychology, holographic movement reprograming, embodiment, and had an ever-deepening spiritual connection. I had put it all aside “temporarily” to build something important to me.
That’s how it happens, right? Wake up years later, wondering what happened to our 30’s. Not any more.
I chose cultivation over achievement. The masculine achieves, while the feminine cultivates.
Since then, I’ve moved my focus to ease, surrender and pleasure as a ritual. Cultivating my feminine energy is now a way of life.
*Creating from a pleasurable baseline with mid-day dance breaks, emotional purges as needed, and Taoist practices to harness my firehose of erotic energy so I literally feel like I’m an energizer bunny. .
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37 54614 October, 2019
“A man practices the art of adventure when he breaks the chain of routine and renews his life through reading new books, traveling to new places, making new friends, taking up new hobbies and adopting new viewpoints.” — Wilfred Peterson
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“Bring me your unreasonableness, your insanity, your love without reason and your passion – the passion that makes you crazy and shoos all logical restraint from your mind. Leave your ordered thoughts, sensible plans and appropriate attire at my door. Put on your animal fur and sing to me in gibberish... Come drum with me, as I place feathers in your hair and we honour the spirits of my animals – of your animal nature too, wild and free as you are in truth. Stick your tongue out and growl at those who try to tame you with guilt, shame and fear. Do you think I gave a damn for any of their silly games? Those games of reason and logic... I care not for what makes sense; I care for what brings you alive.” -Rumi, musings by @alana_fairchild “The Call of the River” by @autumnskyeart 2013 #rumi#rumiquote#inspiringquotes#bringmeyourwildness#untamed#befree#befearless#wildness#iloveyourtruecolor#salmon#naturegasm#rewild#rewilding
80 2,84219 July, 2019
This day was SO FREAKING EPIC!!!! 🏔
Summiting the Zugspitze, the highest point in Germany has been a huge bucket item thing for us since Hannah’s dad told us about when he hiked it 🥾 🇩🇪
This morning started out a little hasty with a last minute decision of looking at the weather forecast for the next few days and saying f*** it, this is our window, let’s DO IT!!!! 💪🏻
So, we scrambled to get our stuff together and hit the trail knowing we would be on a time crunch to get to the top.
The Zugspitze stands almost 3000m (almost 10,000 ft) tall and the route we decided to take recommended at least 10 hours to the summit. the last tram back down for would leave in just over 7 hours. SOOO we only had 7 hours to summit, otherwise we were walking our exhausted bodies the 13 miles BACK DOWN 😩😩
It was a crazy start but our bodies surprised us as usual and we CRUSHED IT 💪🏻 We summitted in just over six hours like the maniacs that we are and had time to spare at the top to enjoy the absolutely breathtaking views!
We highly recommend this hike/trek (can be done as a hut to hut hike in multiple days) to anyone visiting the area. The reward is undoubtably worth the work.
We will be back again for you one day Zugspitze, it was a serious pleasure🙌🏻 🏔
This photo is from one of the most beautiful lakes we have ever been to, Eibsee that sits right at the base of the majestic Zugspitze!
📍47.4211° N, 10.9854° E
An existential lust
Lives deep in my soul
The moment of lingering
The quiver of a heart
Straddling desire and fulfillment
Before it disintegrates into ecstasy
Your love is precious
And I’m grateful
But this lust is so thirsty
An infinite river
Running down my throat
A quench would be the death
Of the eternal orgasm I swim in
Please love me with
That beautiful heart of yours
But don’t touch my lust
This confronting depth I writhe in
Makes this mystery
You are fascinated with
So wildly enticing
But if you put me in a box to figure out
I become a barbie toy
You will tire of your plastic projection
And if I trade my soul for the plastic
I won’t be melting in the ecstasy of this
Flirting with the invisible line
Between lust and love
Between desire and fulfillment
Let me be a enigmatic well
You can keep drinking from
Who will never run dry
Because I inhale a room with no air
And exhale the magic you live for
Photo cred: @permissionary 💋
In the morning when I wake up I harvest my sexual energy into creative life force.
I lay in silence filling myself with light and loving every part of myself.
I open my heart to receiving and experience everything I want already happening in my body.
I go into movement and sensual dance and get the blood flowing.
I love variety so this ritual varies day to day. I make up new elements all the time. It’s fun.
How do you start your day?
Checking your email?
On social media?
Heaven forbid, with the news?
Or in ritual? If so, what is your ritual?
Having a morning ritual that is for you and you alone tells life you’re the source and the center.
Life orbits around clarity of source. Know you are source. Be the sun.
If you’re starting the day putting out fires or arranging yourself around the needs of everyone around you, what are you telling life?
From the stillness within chaos of life is no longer overwhelming.
It’s possible to flow through life with ease. It’s a practice. For me it starts with morning ritual.
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