These are just some of the magical memories that I got to create with an incredible human being @tee.pain! She came in my life right when I needed some #love and dose of #Realness In DC. And now as she moves on and expands her wings in a new adventure. I get to have a #soulsister in Denver. I am so grateful to the universe!Once you are in my heart you’re in it forever. Looks like LA & Denver have big chunks of my heart now! I can’t wait till our next Kookie adventure stay tuned! #friends4life#actoradvocateandyarias#sexyvoyonwheelz
I have undoubtedly been in a IG "hibernation." However, finding the strength to showcase the vulnerability of a moment yesterday night to Family/Friends, prompted more help to others than I could have imagined. Though you can't see ALL that went on, I do hope this helps someone else. 🙏🏽 - #mybreakdown#speakyourtruth#itsokaynottobeokay
⚠️This is a tough post & a truth bomb, however, alot of people go through so much everyday that they don't/won't show. I'm one of them. I internalize pain, feelings, sadness...etc. Done it since I was a child. That is my VERY LOVED 🙌🏽 Bible sitting there on the sink (complete with Laptop & Care Bear just hanging in the background)😬. Most know that within my crazy/busy life, if you need Prayer...you're in there, whether you ask for it or not.🎯
I've been smiling/trying to laugh/be good for tons of reasons...but so have others in my life.😥 While I don't give myself enough credit, I not only need to do that😐...I applaud THEM...plus ANYONE whom does the same. 🙌🏽 I do note that #selflove & #selfcare is SO important...and my ability to notice that it was necessary to show a part of this, was HUGE.
THIS is my straight #realness ...I don't ask for Prayer for myself, I ask for #PRAYER + #HEALING for ALL. 🙏🏽 THAT is my purpose, need & want.
KEEP PUSHING...never be ashamed to show the REAL you, even when it's uncomfortable. The ones who understand your intentions will know your true ❤...the others just don't matter.🤷🏽♀️
- #blessed#mindbodysoul 🙏🏽 #selfloveclub#getupnation#getupnationambassador#knowyourworth#understandyourimpact#loveyourselffirst#protectyoursoul#takecareofyourbody#keeppushing#endthestigma#letyourstoryinspireothers#survivor#warrior#fighter ✊🏽
- #spreadpeaceandlove ✌🏽❤
"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real." "Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit. "Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt." "Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?" "It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."
Margery Williams Bianco, The Velveteen Rabbit
THE BRAND THAT ALLOWS U TO FINALLY BE YOURSELF❤
1.STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF❤
2.STAY TRUE TO YOUR ROOTS❤
SOCIETY HAS BECOME SO STEREOTYPICALLY ITS HARD FOR PEOPLE TO BE THEMSELVES..
♟GULLYANDCOMPANY♟IS A BRAND THAT REPRESENTS A PERSONS SELF
IF SOMEONE DOESNT APPRECIATE YOU EITHER FOR YOUR FASHION/FLAWS/REALNESS THEN THEY ARE NOT FOR U
WE BELIEVE PEOPLE GIVE OFF CERTAIN ENERGY LEVELS THAT WILL ATTRACT CERTAIN LIKE MINDED INVIDUALS THAT WILL RESPECT YOU FOR WHO U ARE AS A PERSON AT THE END OF THE DAY
FOLLOW THE BRAND THAT KEEPS IT 💯 #BRANDSTHATMATTER#ESSESNTIALS#THEMESSAGE#RESPECT#GRATITUDE#FASHION#HATS#SNAPBACKS#KEEPIT100#REALNESS#individuality
I had a really nice caption planned for today but I didnt plan to be an emotional wreck so it's going to have to wait. Lol
In a world full of so many social media smiles, I just wanted to show you the reality behind the screen.
I could have EASILY posted a positive smiling picture, one from earlier today actually, but that's not me. That's not genuine. This is me right now, laying on my bed on my phone. It's been a rollercoaster of a day, emotions all over the place, but guess what? I wouldn't have it any other way.
We are alone in our own heads all the time with our thoughts, and sometimes, they just need to come out. Sunday is a perfect day for it so I embraced it. Although bad days suck and struggling sucks, as I type this out I am reminded of my strength, not only from overcoming past experiences and challenges, but from everyone that supports me.... including you all lol.
So heres a daily dose of reality for you. Never think that everyone out there is just peachy and enjoying their lives. Its easy to post a bomb selfie, but something like this? It took a lot of strength let me tell you.
Being vulnerable is not a weakness. Being emotional is not a weakness. And struggling, is NOT a weakness.
If you are someone struggling or also having a bad day for no apparent reason, or all the reasons, let me just remind you that you are not alone. You have so many people rooting for you even if you dont see it. You have so many people that are there for you even if you dont feel like it. And even though social media can be full of fakeness at times, it is a GREAT resource to use and reach out for support.
I've said it many times before and I'll say it again, my dms are always open to anyone who needs to chat/vent/support, and they always will be.
Bad days come, but like every bad day in the past, they do pass. And we always make it through. Take the time to work through your emotions when they do come, and most importantly, just let it OUT!
I want to make it clear that I am not posting this for any reason other than to give you your daily dose of reality, remind you that it's ok to let out your emotions, and to remind you that you are not alone.
I love you all xo
Little MT kennengelernt und Drebin wieder getroffen (du bist auch überall 😄). Hat mich gefreut und auf ein nächstes mal 💀👊🏻
Meine hässliche fresse, werdet ihr so schnell nicht los 💀😄 Chaplin Club - Weimar
Yesterday was the very first time I’ve worn a bikini since baby Bear. And honestly, I’m not the type of person who gets anxious. But man! My anxiety was through the roof yesterday. I’ve never felt so uneasy and uncomfortable in my own skin. It was so sad! Because before baby, I could quite confidently get amongst it in the busiest beaches in town wearing some of the riskiest bikinis out there. But now, I can hardly show myself without breaking in sweat and nerves, hence the photo in an empty beach. Though I am very grateful and lucky to have a man who tells me I’m beautiful and the sexiest woman out there every day. He’s quite the gentleman, I know!
I don’t really know where I’m going with this exactly.. because I still don’t know how I feel about yesterday after all that. I haven’t fully come into terms with the tummy pooch and stretchmarks, but I am doing my very best to love my new mamā body. So stuff society’s definition of beauty. This mamā is on a journey to love herself, flaws and all.
#realness#Repost@badasscrossstitch with @get_repost
I haven’t had a second to stitch anything new since #RitasQuilt but I plan to make time this weekend for new stitches. In the meantime, this one feels like an appropriate one for everyone choosing to gather with family today. 😉
Light of my life ✨
So, here’s a little bit of real-ness for your Friday morning. I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately, and I just feel like I need to put it out there for all the soon-to-be mums, as I don’t think this is really said.. ever.
When I was pregnant, one of the things people would say to me most is: ‘enjoy your freedom now, bc once baby comes your life is over’.... I heard this over, and over again and I’m not going to lie, it scared me. Would I lose myself completely? Would I ever be able to do anything again? Is my life going to be THAT hard? I feel like I got a lot of negative comments and rarely any positive ones. People focused a lot on the things that would be taken away from me, and how I can’t do anything with a baby.
Here’s the truth though, your life DOES NOT end when you have a child. You can do anything and everything you have always done, it will just be different and you’ll need to make little adjustments. Is it a bit harder? Yes, but it doesn’t mean you can’t do anything. I still do everything I did before, Madelyn comes everywhere with me. Life has changed for the better, I do EVERYTHING I’ve always done, I’ve just adjusted the times I do things and obviously had to make sure I have Madelyn and her things organised. If anything, going out has become BETTER than before, bc I have her to enjoy it with. I always got bored being on my own. I love taking her with me everywhere and my friends and family LOVE spending time with her. I’m so over hearing the negatives. There is SO MANY POSITIVES, and I don’t think they get spoken of enough.
To all the soon-to-be mamas, your life is going to change, but for the better.. be prepared to have your heart filled with the purest love you’ve ever felt, and get ready to meet your best friend fo life. Your life isn’t over, it’s just beginning 🧡🌻 •
Let's talk about mental health for just a minute here...I've been struggling a lot lately with anxiety and obsessive thoughts which make me feel very low. I realized that it in my wanting to protect my instagram space from any negativity...I created a front, when that didn't work I simply started isolating myself a little at first and then so much that it felt like I was interacting/posting on auto pilot.⠀
Ironically something I truly crave and want to find here is connection and community. To be honest, I am not very sure how to separate the negative from the positive stories at the moment, since they seem to be intertwined even in my own head, but I'm going to try. ⠀
I want to do/share more than simply recipes. Food will always be the core of my account but I also want to share the stories behind the recipes or the food in my trips, and simply more of who I am and why I create the way I create. It might be a slow process, but all I know is that I have to move forward and quoting Anna from Frozen II...'choose to listen to the voice (that tells me to keep on) and do the next right thing.'⠀
If you've made it this far...truly...I love you! ✨ and if you didn't...I love you too, except you won't know it 😂.
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quando arriva il mio compleanno arriva il momento dei bilanci: com’è andata quest’anno, cos’ho fatto, quando sono cresciuta. i miei 21 anni non mi hanno reso giustizia: ho dovuto fare i conti con le mie paure, la mia depressione, le mie ansie, i miei sbalzi d’umore. ho pianto troppe volte e quella solitudine mostruosa e invalidante che va a scavare e togliere è stato un sentimento dominante in questo lasso di tempo. tante volte sono rimasta a letto tutto il giorno senza riuscire ad alzarmi, ho sentito il mio corpo essere pervaso da quei brividi spaventosi che conosco bene, mi sono voluta poco bene. eppure ho imparato tanto. ho imparato che spesso sbaglio, ma non perché sono sbagliata io. che le persone possono essere una grandissima risorsa, ma che non devo ancorarmi a queste con tutte le mie forze e che a volte è fisiologico perderle. sono caduta, ho avuto l’impressione di essermi rotta in mille pezzi e non riuscire a rimettere insieme i cocci, ma non è così. giorno dopo giorno, nell’ultimo mese, ho trovato la colla per rimettere tutto insieme. qualche pezzo non è ancora al posto giusto, qualcuno è ancora a terra, ma sono di nuovo in piedi. ho sorriso (anzi, ho riso di gusto) e ho scoperto di essere in grado di tante cose. ma, soprattutto, ho realizzato che io non sono la mia tristezza e il mio disagio interiore: sono molto di più e non è questa la carta che devo presentare agli altri solo perché quella con la quale ho convissuto più a lungo e che conosco meglio. posso piacere alle persone. mi sento pervasa da un senso di leggerezza estraneo e bellissimo, posso dare amore senza paura di essere rifiutata e, ancor più importante, senza dover svalutare me stessa pur di farlo. ci sono tante altre cose che vorrei scrivere, ma mi sto dilungando già tanto. semplicemente: questo è finalmente diventato uno spazio sicuro nel quale non devo avere più paura di niente, specie di me stessa. quindi buon compleanno Marta, con due giorni in ritardo: goditi questi 22 anni, metti sottosopra quello che è stato finora il tuo modo e la tua dimensione, divertiti, sorridi, ama, a volte piangi - senti, senti tantissimo come solo tu sai fare e vivi, è il tuo momento, è la tua ripresa.