So it's holiday season guys and i'm struggling with xmas triggers and dangerous urges, so I know most of you out there are too. Please remember... it's okay to feel weak.
It's okay to feel sad.
It's okay to feel broken.
*This is an extremely personal post but I've been on a #radicalhonesty kick recently & sugar coating shit never helps anything.*
This week I followed through on a very difficult decision I'd made. I delivered a baby I had carried, picked out a family I deemed completely worthy of an opportunity and met them personally. They adopted this beautiful little blonde Angel. I will receive photos and updates and get to see her several times a year. This was set up in under two weeks.
Today's pulls~ #strength + #algiz ~
From #theGoodTarot ~ "I can go the distance & I know that everything occurs in #divinetiming . I have courage as I #manifest miracles. When I allow #Spirit to work through me I am strong enough to move mountains & overcome any obstacles~ inside or out." #Algiz ~rune of #protection + #higherself , Of #connection with #Gods , #awakening & the #divineplan . This #rune governs the strengthening of one's personal gravity: their luck or life force through #courageousdeeds .
I considered these to be very comforting messages regarding my decision. Yes, it was heart breaking. I chose to share this so people can see how open the #adoption process is now. When consequences follow #trauma we are left to make the best of difficult situations. I feel like I have done that. Blessings to all. #Tarot#consequences#choice#runes#divination
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# травмаплеча #травма#ортопедия#движениежизнь#кемерово#кузбасс#shvets#trauma#sergery#kemerovo
Боли в плечевой суставе... Часто обращаются пациенты, именно с такими жалобами. Давайте, попробуем кратко разобрать, одну из возможных причин, а в частности- повреждения вращательной манжеты плеча... Итак:
Разрыв вращательной манжеты плечевого сустава
Вращательная манжета плеча – это анатомо-функциональный комплекс, состоящий из надостной, подостной, подлопаточной и малой круглой мышц и сухожилий, которые окружают сустав и помогают удерживать головку плечевой кости в физиологическом положении.
Травматизация может происходить как отдельных компонентов, так и всего комплекса в целом.
Чаще всего подвержены подобному виду травмы люди, у которых профессиональная деятельность связана с высокой статической или динамической нагрузкой на плечо.
В качестве примера можно привести художников, маляров, плотников, бейсболистов, теннисистов и др. Учитывая эти моменты, какие факторы риска следует выделить:
Возраст. Согласно статистическим данным, чаще возникает у людей старше 40 лет.
Определённые виды спорта. Установлено, что спортсмены, выполняющие часто повторяющиеся движения руками, больше подвержены риску заполучить серьёзные проблемы с ротаторной манжетой плеча.
Строительные специальности. Объяснение аналогично предыдущему пункту.
Генетическая предрасположенность. Особенности строения мышц и суставов, имеющих наследственную природу, могут предрасполагать к растяжению или надрыву ротаторного комплекса.
Спровоцировать развитие повреждения вращательной манжеты плечевого сустава может как острая травма, так и хроническая микротравматизация.
Holla at me stocking up for the winter/new year - Sams Club Round ONE (there will be a round two, tell me what I need below ⬇️) .
I’m a bulk buyer and hate shopping for little things all the time. Stocking up for the winter/new year is good - especially if those winter storms hit. .
• Coffee (duh) - a great deal for 100 k cups .
• dishwasher tabs
. • Swiffers for ceiling fans .
• DISINFECTANT WIPES
• Dryer sheets .
• Toilet paper (not pictured) .
• Detergent & Fabric Softener .
• Dawn dish soap .
I’ve got a list going for round 2. What else do I need? 😉🎄
Moving, grooving, and connecting on Day 1.5 here @1440multiversity — this quick snap from our morning together. PLUS a little ‘Iko Iko’ song ... something that has been a favourite of ours over our past few workshops. Interesting history to this song if you wanna learn a bit about it, here is some of it via the Wikipedia animal: .
. "Iko Iko" (/ˈaɪkoʊ ˈaɪkoʊ/) is a much-covered New Orleans song that tells of a parade collision between two tribes of Mardi Gras Indians and the traditional confrontation. The song, under the original title "Jock-A-Mo", was written and released in 1953 as a single by Sugar Boy and his Cane Cutters but it failed to make the charts. The song first became popular in 1965 by girl group The Dixie Cups, who scored an international hit with "Iko Iko". In 1967, as part of a lawsuit settlement between "Sugar Boy" James Crawford and the Dixie Cups, the trio were given part songwriting credit for the song. In 1972, Dr. John had a minor hit with his version of "Iko Iko". The most successful charting version in the UK was recorded by Scottish singer Natasha England who took her 1982 version into the top 10. "Iko Iko" became an international hit again twice more, the first being the Belle Stars in June 1982 and again with Captain Jack in 2001 ... 💥.
I can't stress it enough on how important it is for us to self reflect and to look into our behaviours and see where our traumas are embedded. No it is not an easy task and it can't be done over night. It is frightening and scary and some times too embarrassing but our traumas left untreated causes us a lot of harm, those around us, our communities and ultimately our collective reality. Once you start working on properly dealing with those trauma by going inwards, accepting, forgiving and releasing then your emotions, thoughts and body begins to change. And you start to change and by law your reality and everyone around you starts to change as well. See healing doesn't only effect you but the collective as well. So its really a win-win situation. 💗
Key is to be patient, give yourself and all parties involved Grace, and keep persevering even if it gets rough, and unbearable. It is always darkest before dawn.
You can make it out stronger, lighter and happier.
With so much love
Momma B 💗
Returning from holding space for someone who is a victim of the political, personal, and societal patriarchy, but is also a survivor through sheer will and resilience, my heart is in my throat where it will remain as I work through this righteous anger.
Then, as I settled in for the night, I read these words by Meera Atkinson:
“Rendered bearable, semi-functional, and sometimes profoundly admirable by the everyday goodness and love that escapes, and evolves beyond, the stranglehold of eons of conditioning, we instinctively know there is hope for a better way and a better world.”
I will fight with compassion.
I have hope. I have hope. I have hope.
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OBRIGADO SENHOR POR TUDO QUE TEM ME ORFERTADO ,O Corpo de Bombeiros Militar do Distrito Federal (CBMDF) e a Associação Brasileira de Resgate e Salvamento (Abres) promovem, a partir de quarta-feira (4), o 4º Desafio Nacional de Salvamento Veicular e de Trauma. Serão 133 competidores nas provas de salvamento veicular e 38 para as de trauma.
Haverá provas em cenários que simulam acidentes automobilísticos e situações diversas que culminem em traumas. Caberá aos competidores mostrar técnicas e procedimentos utilizados em ocorrências reais de salvamento veicular e atendimento pré-hospitalar.
As equipes que obtiverem as primeiras classificações nas suas categorias serão indicadas para participar do Desafio Mundial de Resgate (WRC), promovido pela Organização Mundial de Resgate (WRO). Além da competição, haverá exposição de viaturas e de materiais e, na quinta e na sexta-feiras (5 e 6), uma competição para as crianças. 4° Desafio Nacional de Salvamento Veicular e de Trauma
Cerimônia de abertura: quarta-feira (4), às 20h.
Competição: de quinta-feira a sábado (5 a 7), das 8h às 18h.
Local: Academia de Bombeiro Militar do Corpo de Bombeiros Militar do Distrito Federal. Setor Policial (SPO), Área Especial 3, Asa Sul. Ambiente coberto.
BSB 2019 BA G.CASTRO.+ #pre_hospitalar #cbmdf#samu#enfermeiro#enfermeiro #enfermeira#emergencia # #trauma #bombeiros #hemoragia#enfermagem#bombeiromilitar#bombeirodeaeródromo#bombeirocivil#medicina
Boa noite gentem!!!
Não sou de postar com cor, mas esse merece!
Lindo trabalho de um artista onde ele passa em forma de arte alguns dos sentimentos mais terríveis! (Esses eu conheço muito bem)
Aqueles q não sabem oq é pode até se assustar... mas... eu vejo como uma linda arte da realidade 👏☺😍
Nós somos muito fortes, conviver diariamente com esses mostros e ainda conseguir sorrir, brincar, comer... viver!
Minha linha não se apavora mais com eles..
E meu copo sempre meio cheio nunca meio vazio 💪 #estressepostraumatico#trauma#depressão#bipolaridade#transtornobipolar#depressão#ansiedade
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Sign-up now via the link in my bio.
Tuesday, December 17th, 8PM Eastern
YES, if you sign up through the link, you'll get a replay link even if you can't make it to the actual training time.
A few weeks ago, I offered a free training and answered your questions about the intersection of trauma and circus. We didn't even get through half of your questions, so I'm offering a follow-up webinar!
Anyone who is interested is invited.
This will be relevant for students, coaches, movement professionals, therapists, and anyone who finds any of these topics interesting.
Want to know how to better support your students who have trauma histories? Want to better understand the way that trauma impacts the nervous system and what this has to do with circus or movement arts? I got you.
WANT A SPECIFIC QUESTION ANSWERED: You have options! You can comment below. Or, if you prefer to be anonymous, you can follow the link in my profile to the google form to submit an anonymous question.
See you then!
“According to somatic psychologists, our bodies hold on to past traumas which are reflected in our body language, posture and also expressions. In some cases past traumas may manifest physical symptoms like pain, digestive issues, hormonal imbalances, sexual dysfunction and immune system dysfunction, medical issues, depression, anxiety and addiction.
Somatic psychology confirms that the mind and body connection is deeply rooted. In recent years neuroscience has emerged with evidence that supports somatic psychology, showing how the mind influences the body and how the body influences the mind. Experiencing one or many traumatic event(s) can lead to anxiety, depression, short temper, intrusive thoughts, sleep disturbance, and other symptoms. Research has shown that regular exercise can decrease depression, anxiety, sleep disturbance, and other symptoms of postraumatic stress, while improving quality of life. Releasing the physical knots helps untie the emotional ones. Strengthening the physical body helps build a sense of safety, trust and familiarity within the self. Creating more balanced, fluid movement patterns helps regulate internal energy and allows it to flow smoothly. Movement is medicine.” #somaticexperiencing#somatics#physical#exercise#fitness#therapy#trauma#weightloss#movement#medicine#movementismedicine#nervoussystem#thalamus#brain#health
Sutura em bolsa de fumo: utilizada para fechamento de orifícios circulares e para promover o estreitamento do orifício anal, após a correção de prolapso de reto.
Reposted from @anatomiae -
Dissociation is a helpful function; it is simply the biological ability to disconnect from their sensory experience, sense of Self, and memory of what happened. I.e if a tiger attacks us leaving a physical wound typically the body sends a rush of chemicals to help us dissociate from our bodies so we do not feel pain in the moment. Our bodies do this in order to access the frontal cortex and deal with the event in cognitive schemas. The goal is that we get to safety to take care of whatever wound we have. 🧠
While this protective function helps us as children to survive under distressful circumstances this also results in fragmentation. A part of us always knows how that event really felt. The problem with emotional/mental wounds is when we do not take care of them we stay fragmented (wearing that rain coat size 4T when we are size 7 adult).
Dissociation becomes unhelpful or a "dysfunction" when it is triggered unconsciously. If distressful events are not processed the body remembers and remains vigilant for cues. We run the risk of dissociation being triggered in ocassions where there is no actual perceived danger. So if we were attacked by a tiger, any grass shaking might trigger it; if we were harmed by our parents any relationship might trigger it. 🐯🌾
Dissociative symptoms can be denials such as: intellectualization, maximization, minimization, positivism, etc. We can also dissociate with compulsive behaviors (OCD, ADD, ADHD, exercise, religion/spirituality) or substances (food, sex, drugs, medication, etc). 💉💊
As a mental ability, dissociation can be used consciously. We do not need to get rid of it or cure it but we need to learn use it to support our recovery. In order to to do that, we have to face those wounds that made this program run on automatic; we need to integrate our fragmented parts.
⛓ #InternalFamilySystems #emdr #somaticexperiencing #dissociation #fragmentation #integration #spirituabypass #positivity #recovery #betrayaltrauma #betrayaltraumarecovery #ptsd #ptsdrecovery
How are we protecting one another? How are we caring for gender expansive folx that don't fit into binaries? Where do we begin to see our gender blur & subvert the lines of systematic "normalcy"? Illustration by: @avionsitodepapel
[Image Description: A trans femme of color stares into the distance against a dark blue background. Her dark brown hair is up in a pony tail and contrasts against the halo behind her head. They are wearing gold rim glasses, neon green eyeshadow, and purple lipstick Her hand lays on their chest while she is wearing a purple huipil. Next to her, there is orange text that reads: I am not a normal girl, or boy. I am a being that colonial institutions have attempted to destroy.]
Eis um ditado que mostra, de forma simples, a importância de verbalizar o que sentimos e pensamos, pois o que não é expresso tende, mais cedo ou mais tarde, a afetar nosso bem-estar e até nosso #estado de #alma .
Narrando os fatos, percebemos que eles talvez não sejam tão negativos quanto pensávamos, que a #raiva que alguém despertou em nós diminuiu, que o #trauma que #sofremos já não assusta tanto, que nossas #vitórias foram mais importantes do que pareciam.
Da mesma maneira, o que a princípio foi visto como algo trágico pode, com o passar do tempo, revelar-se uma grande oportunidade de #crescimento
23 Sonda-me, ó #Deus , e conhece o meu coração; prova-me, e conhece os meus #pensamentos .
24 E vê se há em mim algum caminho mau, e guia-me pelo caminho #eterno . #Salmos 139
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Technically my first actual short film. This was 2 years ago... crazy *
Insecurities never lead to positive results. Domestic violence can be triggered by any small acts so be sure to watch out for the signs.
If you know anyone in this situation or are going through this and need help call the number below or visit www.thehotline.org
Domestic Violence National Hotline Number: 1-800-799-7233
Midyear. It’s that magical time of the year in the pharmacy world where thousands gather to explore, learn, socialize, and have a few drinks with friends and colleagues. Aspiring residents & fellows, best of luck! Don’t forget speak with confidence, keep eye contact, and greet with a firm handshake
For those interested, Boston Medical Center ☘️ will be at the residency showcase Monday, 12/9 @ 1300-1600, booth 4547/4543. Come meet our residents, preceptors, and administrative staff!
Coaching to provide guidance & support to those who seek change in their life.
I serve as an Intuitive cheerleader as well as an intellectual resource to help you get unstuck.⠀ Booking available for January 2020.
Contrary to some beliefs, it is pain, that is the great motivator that gives people the opportunity to make a change in their life - if they choose to. .
Pain from being broke, without a mate, losing a parent, lack of health or pain in the body, it really doesn’t matter - pain motivates. .
Pain wakes us up. It pierces through the noise in our heads & it shoots directly through to our hearts.
It can open up our consciousness & awareness to things we’ve not been paying attention to or taking action toward. .
Even devastating things that happen in our lives can push us to wake-up to new realizations about ourselves & it might even push us in directions in our lives we didn’t think about before ... .
... it happened to me years ago, after Chiropractic College, where life sent me down a road to learn about & experience different techniques for emotional healing. It was at that time that I realized I was passionate about emotional healing & how it directly connected to physical healing. I was a very sensitive person, however emotional well-being was not my strength, as my physicality & athleticism was way out of proportion stronger ... now in my life, I’m happy to say they’re equal. .
Various kinds of pain & painful events give us opportunities to wake up & we decide the meanings as to why these events have happened & how we choose to respond to them. .
Years ago, even though I was going through tremendous amounts of pain, I was also simultaneously realizing my passion at the same time. .
And it became my obsession, that no matter how badly I was feeling & the stuff I had to dig through, it was the clarity of the skills I was learning & my passion & vision of what became my work today, that propelled me along all these years. .
People say bad things happen for us, not to us & I don’t agree with that, but what I do know is that we choose who we’re going to be & what we’re going to do with those feelings, regardless of what happened. .
Put all of your feelings into creating something, regardless what it is ... all the heart break, sadness, rage, anger, resentment. Keep healing, keep evolving & keep creating with it all.
“If students can read, they have a chance to find success in school and overcome all those terrible things in their lives. If they can’t, school will only be another source of pain and failure added to all the other sources of pain and failure”.
“If students can read, they can benefit from therapy and everything else we may try to do for them. If they can’t read, all of that will be a waste of time”. Dr. David Kilpatrick.
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When someone says you can't do it. Do it again and again and again. As a young asian woman growing up I frequently came across messages of what I could do. I was told not to study IT at school when it came to picking my GCSE options because the subject is dominated with boys. .
I was raised to be an obedient girl who shouldn't have too much ambition because my destiny was to get married. .
I was told not to study too much,
not to learn to drive,
not to go to university,
not to say no to a marriage proposal.
The list goes on.
Of course I did all of these things because I knew there was nothing wrong with them. These messages were coming from a place of fear and insecurity rather than love.
You can achieve all the things you want whilst maintaining your values and faith. Be the person you want to be. Get in touch if you need help to ignite the authentic you. ❤ #trauma#healing#thriving
Fearfully-avoidant attachment is often one of the most commonly misunderstood attachment styles.
The fearful-avoidant often experiences internal chaos in relationships. On one hand, they might experience an intense desire for closeness and intimacy, but deeply repel or resist it once they are in a relationship. The internal chaos may include dissociation (which is one way the brain tries to create safety) can occur through obsessing, fantasizing, or trying to control the outcome of the relationship in other ways. Sometimes, an individual with fearful-avoidant attachment will cope with the uncertainty and discomfort of getting close to others by self-medicating, overspending, drugs/alcohol, etc. avoid the intensity of the feelings they are experiencing in the relationship and attempt to ease the internal dysregulation they are experiencing.
This internal experience might feel “crazy making” - it often stems from the original feelings of panic and fear experienced around having a primary caretaker whose dysregulation (whether due to depression, anxiety, etc.) interfered with their ability to show up fully, to get to know their child and to instill the core belief that their child is worthy of getting to know.
As a result, fear inundates a fearfully-avoidant attached individual's ability to get close - they may feel victimized in other spaces (work, friendships) even though they are actively participating in a cycle of resisting and distancing when met with the opportunity to get close to others & be “seen.” Withdrawing from relationships altogether might feel like the only way to cope - however, healing is possible through practicing secure-functioning behaviors (essentially, counter-behaviors to what you have become acclimated to), including practicing mindfulness and seeking trauma-informed therapeutic support to ease dissociative patterns as well as learning to set clear boundaries with regards to what “safety” looks like in the context of a relationship.
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It's ok to say "No" to demands to put on a happy face.
It's ok to say "No" to crowds.
It's ok to say "No" to family dinners.
It's ok to say "No" to buying gifts.
It's ok to not love the holidays!
It's ok to take care of yourself.
It's ok to set boundaries.
They might not understand.
They might challenge you.
They might get angry.
When we take care of ourselves in a healthy way, it may highlight others' problems. It's not you, it's them! Stay on course... Do what you know you need!
What do you need to say "No" to?
I support you in and salute you for saying "No!" This is your healing!
0 21 December, 2019
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You cannot give someone what you do not know.
The truth is that as we become closer to our authentic self, those closest to us will resist this the most.
This is one of the most painful parts of the healing process. It’s what makes so many people fall back into the false self because it’s extremely lonely and isolating.
But there is deep wisdom in the isolation period. It’s a learning. I couldn’t see it when I went through it. Now, I see how valuable that clearing was for me.
I had to face myself. The relationship dynamics I wasn’t even aware of. I had to witness my codependency, my avoidance, the trauma bonds, and my past self.
People who don’t focus on evolution, cannot celebrate the evolution of another. They’ll do the opposite, resist it beyond belief. Some may even take to mocking it. We can’t honor what we don’t know. We can’t see the beauty of transformation, if our ego has control of our behavior.
To heal, we must actively practice being misunderstood. Then, trust the process + continue the work #selfhealers
We can have ego love with family, friends, or partners.
In this state we are fear based. We believe someone can (and should meet all of our needs.) We project our unresolved trauma, try to control, and unconsciously shame those around us.
You’ll know if a relationship is ego based if you feel drained after interactions, or fearful to speak truths due to reactions.
Authentic love lacks conditions. You’ll feel free to express yourself + your boundaries. Time spent together will bring you peace. You’ll feel comfortable speaking truths.
In authentic love we take responsibility to meet our own needs, and clearly communicate our needs to others. We play fair. We fight fair. And at the foundation of the relationship is mutual respect + admiration.
During my awakening, I had some heart breaking realizations of just how many of my relationships were ego based. From family to friends. I saw how my own ego had been involved. And I felt so much resistance to connecting with these people. I’d make excuses. I’d lie.
Anything to avoid seeing the relationships I had manifested. That’s important to understand: our relationship are a mirror of our current level of consciousness.
As we do the work, our relationships will shift. They’ll change. We will clear many people from our lives. Not because we are “woke” and they are not, but because as we evolve, what we value changes. And that’s ok.
Letting go is part of our journey.
I’m curious, how are your friendships changing due to this work? Let me know so I can create around this #selfhealers
What we really mean by spiritual awakening, or dark night of the soul, is having an awareness of the ego state.
The ego state is an unconscious state of existing as the false self.
In this state we deny our true nature.
We dismiss our needs. We betray ourselves. We seek external validation. We want partners, parents, therapists, gurus,+ friends to “save” us from ourselves. The ego state lacks self trust, so without someone else we are “stuck.” We live life on the defensive entering every “new” situation with a past belief, not allowing ourselves to have new emotional experiences.
This is the cycle of human suffering.
We live as victims of our past, repeating it over and over again in cycles within the present moment. We live within a story. A story that does not serve us. “I am x” or “I always do x” or “x always happens to me” are the ego stories that drive all of our behavior.
Because the ego state is a state of protection and denial, we aren’t aware of ourselves. We can’t see our actions from an objective awareness. We can’t see our habits and patterns and how they manifest into a physical reality.
This is a powerless state that creates fear + resentment. We have no agency. And when humans have no agency, there will always be rage. The perfect response to a life one hasn’t consciously chosen.
Rage, and violence at its core is a response to this internal state. Violence is just an attempt to finally fully control an experience in ones life.
To live a conscious life is simply to see. It’s observing the choices you make, or don’t make. It’s witnessing your habitual reactions. Your emotional state. What you consume. How you speak. It’s having the humility to see what needs to be unlearned + what needs to be learned.
I held onto my victim consciousness. It became a part of “me.” My relationships were spaces to own it. To have someone else confirm it.
I subconsciously created situations where I could be sure it continued.
I’d push, and push a patient partner to get that hit of emotional response. And when she wouldn’t take the bait, when she held a mirror to my capability, I pushed her away. Confirming the “truth” I wanted as payoff: I will always be alone.
The foundation of emotional healing is accountability. And radical truth to self around what we get from living a story of our past.
The foundation of body healing is self care. Experiencing new emotional states. Sleeping. Getting sun. Creating. Eating well. Releasing the trapped emotions the body has become dependent on since childhood.
Chaos is still leaving my body.
Be gentle with yourself as you process a new way of existing.